My friend J is getting ready for her daughter’s 4th birthday and she’s worried that it would be too cold on Maxine's birthday for kids to have an outdoor party. She lives in My coldest memory is the Easter weekend of 2002 in New York City. I spent my savings for a New York vacation---it was the end of winter, and the city was cold and wet. I was looking forward to experience New York City in spring but I arrived a bit too early. The snow had melted but left a biting cold in the air and a muddy slush that resembles the streets of Manila during rainy season. In the mornings, I could barely get out of bed, shivering despite the heater and I had to be dragged to take a shower. All I wanted to do was to stay in bed the whole day and read "One Hundred Years of Solitude". Itchy pimples erupted all over my face, I developed bad cold and a cough that sounded like coming from the wards of QI. There seemed to be not enough layers of thermal wear to keep me warm. I was cold and miserable, wishing I was dead...wishing I was back in hot and humid Manila. The sight of leafless trees and gray skies didn't cheer me up, either.
My feelings, it seem, have been oriented by the degree of sunlight as far back as I can remember. For reasons which will be, perhaps, more obvious to doctors than to me, hot and cold are two points of two clusters of images and emotions. As I reflect at this moment, I get the following associations: Hot---warm, bright sunlight, green fields, fountains, al fresco dining, ice cream, long drive, clear, blue skies, sweat, fiesta, bare feet, beach, mountains, kites, hammock, sunglasses, afternoon naps, cold beer, shorts, cotton shirts, flip flops, boats, travel. Cold---rain, wind, wet, damp shoes, slow-moving traffic, sea disasters, mob of umbrellas, clogged gutters, hot soup, flood, bulky jackets, isolation, stressed commuters, hot chocolate, cough, runny nose, boredom, sleep, cold morning showers, road accidents, storm, soggy jeans, grey skies, black out.
In cold weather, I'm a tropical fish stranded in the middle of the Arctic Ocean. If you've seen a tropical fish banging on the sides of the aquarium, that would be me. Life will only be bearable if I stay in bed in my pajamas, defenseless like a sick puppy. I do not really function properly until I can wear flip flops, shorts and t-shirt; grace and kindness evaporate when the temperature dips low and rain becomes a relentless, torrential downpour.
When I read the morning paper, after a brief glance at the obituary page, I concentrate on the weather news---if it's going to be rainy, cloudy, stormy or sunny, its immediate importance goes beyond any headline, scandal, scathing editorial and showbiz gossip.
In cold weather, I'm a tropical fish stranded in the middle of the Arctic Ocean. If you've seen a tropical fish banging on the sides of the aquarium, that would be me. Life will only be bearable if I stay in bed in my pajamas, defenseless like a sick puppy. I do not really function properly until I can wear flip flops, shorts and t-shirt; grace and kindness evaporate when the temperature dips low and rain becomes a relentless, torrential downpour.
When I read the morning paper, after a brief glance at the obituary page, I concentrate on the weather news---if it's going to be rainy, cloudy, stormy or sunny, its immediate importance goes beyond any headline, scandal, scathing editorial and showbiz gossip.Should circumstances ever allow me to retire someday soon (I’m still too poor to retire), I’d like to retire in a little fishing town on an island outside the typhoon belt where the sun shines 365 days in a year. There, not I hope alone, I shall eat fish, play music, read, and die content.
Photos taken at the Manila Ocean Park.
Photos taken at the Manila Ocean Park.
